Akram Khan
I was always very energetic and lively as a child and was
actively encouraged to dance by my mother who took me to kathak
(classical Indian dance) lessons and got me involved in theatre
productions when I was quite young. As a teenager I was inspired by
Michael Jackson - the first person I saw who could not only sing
but dance impressively, too - but I did not get the chance to
develop my own dancing in school. I really enjoyed Drama and
Theatre class but often felt frustrated because I found it very
text-based and I was more interested in the performing side of
things. It could be difficult sometimes because I was the only one
amongst my friends who danced and they were more interested in
football, so I didn't really have anyone my own age I could talk to
about my dancing. When I saw other men dancing I felt that I
could really relate to them. I thought that if they could do
it then so could I, which made me more determined.
I come from an Asian community and there was quite a pressure on me
to follow a very academic career route (doctor or engineer) but the
more I was told that I shouldn't follow a career in dance the more
it made me want to do it. I am like that about a lot of things; if
someone tells me I can't do something it makes me more determined
to do it anyway! Dancing is the only time that I feel truly myself
and honest with myself. Anything else just doesn't feel honest. I
think this is a real key to success - you have to really believe
that you can do it and that gives you the drive and determination
to get on despite the challenges. There are many challenges to
becoming a dancer. I have to work really hard and there's not a lot
of money, but I enjoy doing it so much that it gives me
fulfilment.
There were challenges along the way but I found inspiration and
support from my various teachers. When my community were unhappy
because I did not follow a traditional academic route I got great
support from my kathak teacher, who became my guru. When I went to
De Monfort University to study for a dance degree I learnt
contemporary dance for the first time and my kathak teacher wasn't
pleased because it changed the way that I performed classical
dance. At this time I got support and inspiration from my teachers
at college. Even now I can have moments of doubt and that is when I
need an inspirational push from other artists. I have been
supported and encouraged in particular by Jonathon Burrows and more
recently my mentor is William Forsythe. It gives me a real boost to
discover that dancers and artists that I really admire actually
believe in me. We all need that bit of support and encouragement
when we have our moments of doubt.
I think that when you are questioning your artistic direction you
should seek the advice of others around you. Support from teachers
and parents is really important. Although my parents and my friends
at school were not very sure of the career I chose I think it was
because they did not really understand what it meant to be a
dancer. Now they all come and see my performances and they do
understand and are really encouraging. I think it is really
important that a teacher really listens to their students and
allows them to be honest and open without judging. I think that
what makes you individual is when you listen to your own
voice. Others might sometimes be critical of this as they
were with me but it is the passion and self-belief and will to
succeed that matters - as well as being talented. Talent on its own
is not always enough; if you do not believe in yourself and really
listen to your own doubts then you will never succeed. If you
believe you can do it, you will - just do it.